you will fear my arbitrariness, especially when you are
already so weak and vulnerable. Don’t underestimate the moments when
you feel loved and cared for, those are my sweetest moments when I spray
fear over every inch of your little body. You will be meaningful,
unique, beautiful and safe before you become my worthless,
insignificant, worn out piece of fuck meat to feed your head with what I
want to get you hooked on. Some brutal, cold blooded, romantic abusive Primal
who just leaves you behind humiliated in your juice to enjoy a freshly
recovered body, consumed in your thoughts of chaos and greed for my
hand, again and again.

the
power of blowjobs is always so hailed. I can’t feel great about actual
blowjobs if the woman doesn’t understand me and the real me.

Blowjob is a sexual satisfaction.

For me it’s a way of evaluating the expression and increasing the
level of abuse in her eyes. In which I don’t use my big cock to satisfy
myself but to increase my greed for physical and mental abuse. If I fuck
her skull for 10 minutes and I see her exertion, I see the spit, the
drool flowing out of her mouth then it looks good but I want more. I
want to see her confrontation in her head leaping at me. If she thinks
“is it soon enough”, she is the wrong one. But if she’s thinking “it’s so disgraceful, disgusting how he uses me and my filthy mouth like I’m a fleshlight” she’s the one.

I want to see in your eyes that you notice how every
minute your initial action for my satisfaction turns into your
humiliation. As you soften and exhaustion hits your throat and neck, you
know you’re being judged as your objectification translates into
psychological evaluation and verbal humiliation.

Then that turns me on.

Fantasy
is a shit word that women can do on their own, I want it real and I am
reality. However, when I take photos it is often my “fantasy world” for
me, but my pictures don’t turn me on sexually at all. Not even the
thought behind it, through caption and co. I’m also there at the moment
and the sexual option doesn’t turn me on. I don’t think I’ve ever
masturbated on, before, after, or in the way I photograph. My style is
my fantasy if I were normal I would love something like that. I’m not
sexually attracted to regular sex, much less ONS or regular sex without
some attachment or connection.

I make an absolute distinction between shooting and a sex date. In my
shootings, I use a mental type of mindfuck with certain girls. It might
sound silly, but right from the start I’m very direct with wording and
clearly identify as sadist/BDSM right from the start. Not to explore if
there is a chance for a sexual option? No. Rather, it’s about giving
people the opportunity to quickly ensure that this isn’t the biggest
thing in the world. I’m very charismatic and I think my way of talking
to people about sexuality relaxes many people very quickly. Let’s just
say I’m an orca who has absolutely zero interest in snowwolves and just
likes seals. Dark, Rubber Skin and faces like cute cats.

Of course there is and was the topic of a date after a shooting. It’s a
completely different world, of course. Many of my girls are in the kinky
area. It then of course happens that we are also sexually active after a
date and then shoot again, but for me it is very clear. A shoot is a
shoot. If you date me afterwards, it’s a whole different world.