Blowjob - no satisfication a tool for Degradation

the
power of blowjobs is always so hailed. I can’t feel great about actual
blowjobs if the woman doesn’t understand me and the real me.

Blowjob is a sexual satisfaction.

For me it’s a way of evaluating the expression and increasing the
level of abuse in her eyes. In which I don’t use my big cock to satisfy
myself but to increase my greed for physical and mental abuse. If I fuck
her skull for 10 minutes and I see her exertion, I see the spit, the
drool flowing out of her mouth then it looks good but I want more. I
want to see her confrontation in her head leaping at me. If she thinks
“is it soon enough”, she is the wrong one. But if she’s thinking “it’s so disgraceful, disgusting how he uses me and my filthy mouth like I’m a fleshlight” she’s the one.

I want to see in your eyes that you notice how every
minute your initial action for my satisfaction turns into your
humiliation. As you soften and exhaustion hits your throat and neck, you
know you’re being judged as your objectification translates into
psychological evaluation and verbal humiliation.

Then that turns me on.